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General Discussion / Re: ▶ Guide: Forum Post Customisation!
« on: September 04, 2020, 01:14:53 pm »
3. Tables - Perfect for Character Bios
Tables are easy as long as you don't get disoriented in all the "tr"s and "td"s.
tr = table row
td = table data (columns of the row)

Useful Tools:
Online Table Generator Tool

Table:
There's no way to add either a border or a cell background.
A basic table of 2 rows and 2 columns would be this:

███C1 row1████ ██C2 row1███
████C1 row2██████ ███C2 row2████

As you can see, the cell widths adjust across the rows so for the best looks I do not recommend using more than 1 row per table.

You can create more single-row tables separately by pressing 'Enter' instead of creating a new row. What that does is that your table's contents are going to look much better and tidied up.
You can also create tables within tables if you'd like to divide the space even more.


Code for the multiple single-rows:
Code: [Select]
[table]
[tr]
[td]1st. table column1[/td]
[td]1st. table column2[/td]
[/tr]
[/table]
[table]
[tr]
[td]2nd. table column1[/td]
[td]2nd. table column2[/td]
[/tr]
[/table]


EXAMPLE: MULTIPLE ROWS:
Quote
Lorem ipsum
Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet

Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Vitae congue eu consequat ac felis donec et odio. Orci sagittis eu volutpat odio facilisis. Viverra nam libero justo laoreet. Maecenas ultricies mi eget mauris pharetra et ultrices neque ornare. Ut eu sem integer vitae. Lacus laoreet non curabitur gravida arcu ac tortor dignissim convallis. Egestas purus viverra accumsan in nisl nisi scelerisque eu. Eu mi bibendum neque egestas congue. Lectus sit amet est placerat in egestas erat imperdiet sed. Quis enim lobortis scelerisque fermentum dui faucibus.
Sit amet purus gravida quis blandit turpis cursus. Vulputate sapien nec sagittis aliquam malesuada bibendum arcu vitae. Quisque id diam vel quam elementum pulvinar. Semper viverra nam libero justo laoreet. Hendrerit dolor magna eget est lorem ipsum dolor sit amet. Accumsan in nisl nisi scelerisque eu ultrices.

Ultrices mi tempus imperdiet nulla malesuada. Sit amet aliquam id diam. In iaculis nunc sed augue lacus viverra vitae congue eu. In est ante in nibh mauris cursus mattis molestie a. Nec dui nunc mattis enim ut tellus. In hendrerit gravida rutrum quisque. Gravida arcu ac tortor dignissim convallis aenean et. Nisl nisi scelerisque eu ultrices vitae. Leo a diam sollicitudin tempor id eu nisl nunc mi. Sed viverra tellus in hac habitasse platea dictumst. Duis at consectetur lorem donec massa sapien faucibus. Urna porttitor rhoncus dolor purus non enim praesent elementum. Nulla malesuada pellentesque elit eget. Blandit volutpat maecenas volutpat blandit aliquam etiam erat. Urna cursus eget nunc scelerisque viverra mauris in aliquam sem. Augue lacus viverra vitae congue eu.

Egestas purus viverra accumsan in nisl nisi scelerisque. Tortor id aliquet lectus proin. Aenean vel elit scelerisque mauris pellentesque pulvinar pellentesque. At tempor commodo ullamcorper a lacus vestibulum. Enim lobortis scelerisque fermentum dui faucibus in. Nunc eget lorem dolor sed viverra ipsum nunc. Urna duis convallis convallis tellus id interdum. Maecenas sed enim ut sem viverra aliquet eget. Ac felis donec et odio pellentesque. Est lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipiscing. Faucibus in ornare quam viverra orci sagittis. Elit duis tristique sollicitudin nibh sit amet commodo nulla. Adipiscing elit pellentesque habitant morbi. Egestas integer eget.



EXAMPLE: TWO SINGLE-ROWS:

Quote
Lorem ipsum
Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet

Lorem ipsum dolor sit amet, consectetur adipiscing elit, sed do eiusmod tempor incididunt ut labore et dolore magna aliqua. Vitae congue eu consequat ac felis donec et odio. Orci sagittis eu volutpat odio facilisis. Viverra nam libero justo laoreet. Maecenas ultricies mi eget mauris pharetra et ultrices neque ornare. Ut eu sem integer vitae. Lacus laoreet non curabitur gravida arcu ac tortor dignissim convallis. Egestas purus viverra accumsan in nisl nisi scelerisque eu. Eu mi bibendum neque egestas congue. Lectus sit amet est placerat in egestas erat imperdiet sed. Quis enim lobortis scelerisque fermentum dui faucibus.
Sit amet purus gravida quis blandit turpis cursus. Vulputate sapien nec sagittis aliquam malesuada bibendum arcu vitae. Quisque id diam vel quam elementum pulvinar. Semper viverra nam libero justo laoreet. Hendrerit dolor magna eget est lorem ipsum dolor sit amet. Accumsan in nisl nisi scelerisque eu ultrices.

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_______Ultrices mi tempus imperdiet nulla malesuada. Sit amet aliquam id diam. In iaculis nunc sed augue lacus viverra vitae congue eu. In est ante in nibh mauris cursus mattis molestie a. Nec dui nunc mattis enim ut tellus. In hendrerit gravida rutrum quisque. Gravida arcu ac tortor dignissim convallis aenean et. Nisl nisi scelerisque eu ultrices vitae. Leo a diam sollicitudin tempor id eu nisl nunc mi. Sed viverra tellus in hac habitasse platea dictumst. Duis at consectetur lorem donec massa sapien faucibus. Urna porttitor rhoncus dolor purus non enim praesent elementum. Nulla malesuada pellentesque elit eget. Blandit volutpat maecenas volutpat blandit aliquam etiam erat. Urna cursus eget nunc scelerisque viverra mauris in aliquam sem. Augue lacus viverra vitae congue eu.

Egestas purus viverra accumsan in nisl nisi scelerisque. Tortor id aliquet lectus proin. Aenean vel elit scelerisque mauris pellentesque pulvinar pellentesque. At tempor commodo ullamcorper a lacus vestibulum. Enim lobortis scelerisque fermentum dui faucibus in. Nunc eget lorem dolor sed viverra ipsum nunc. Urna duis convallis convallis tellus id interdum. Maecenas sed enim ut sem viverra aliquet eget. Ac felis donec et odio pellentesque. Est lorem ipsum dolor sit amet consectetur adipiscing. Faucibus in ornare quam viverra orci sagittis. Elit duis tristique sollicitudin nibh sit amet commodo nulla. Adipiscing elit pellentesque habitant morbi. Egestas integer eget.

Code for the multiple single-rows:
Code: [Select]
[table]
[tr]
[td]1st. table column1[/td]
[td]1st. table column2[/td]
[/tr]
[/table]
[table]
[tr]
[td]2nd. table column1[/td]
[td]2nd. table column2[/td]
[/tr]
[/table]
*images used in the examples are under a CC0 - Creative Commons license, provided by "kisscc0.com"

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General Discussion / Re: Guide: Forum Post Customisation!
« on: September 04, 2020, 01:13:36 pm »
2. Formatting Codes
Tools for these are fortunately implemented in the forum post creation! I'm including them in order to have everything in one place, and for copypasting purposes if you decide to pre-write a forum post separately.
Most of the text formatting can be combined. If you do that, keep an eye on the tag order.

e.g. [b][i]text[/i][/b]  is correct   ->  text
      [i][b]text[/i][/b]  is incorrect and won't show up right  ->  text[/b]

Useful Tools:
Visual-Based BBcode editor

Text Formats:

(Unwrap the Spoiler below to see the full list of formats)
Spoiler

Bold text
[b] Text [/b]

Itallic text
[i] Text [/i]

Underlined text
[u] Text [/u]

Scratched-out text
[s] Text [/s]

Glowing text
[glow=COLOR,2,300] Glowing text [/glow]

The number in the "glow" code doesn't really do anything here, but without any number put in the code breaks.
"Glow" value set on 1 ->  Glowing text
"Glow" value set on 50,000 ->  Glowing text


Sizing of the text:
You can use pretty much any number for the numerical value of the text size.

   'Oh, don't talk about trouble!' said the Duchess.
[size=8pt] Text [/size]

   'Oh, don't talk about trouble!' said the Duchess.
[size=12pt] Text [/size]

   'Oh, don't talk about trouble!' said the Duchess.
[size=18pt] Text [/size]



URL Hyperlinking:
This is to create clickable links. There's three ways you can do this:

1) Paste the URL
Simply pasting a link works.
https://netheril.net/forums/index.php

2) Assign the URL to a text
CLICK ME
[url=link] Text [/url]
   + the link text can be further formatted
   CLICK ME

3) Assign the URL to an image

[url=link][img]image_link[/img][/url]


Images:
Adding images in is very simple. They cannot be scaled though, so make sure they are of a correct size.

Unlinked image

[img]image_link[/img]

Linked image

[url=link][img]image_link[/img][/url]


Quoting:

Basic quote
Quote
Gossip text
[quote]Gossip text[/quote]

Marked quote
Quote from: Ritulienka
Gossip text
[quote=title/name]Gossip text[/quote]
[/color]


Lists:

Unordered List:
  • Text1
  • Text2
  • Text3
Code: [Select]
[list]
[*]Text1
[*]Text2
[*]Text3
[/list]


Ordered List:

  • Text1
  • Text2
  • Text3
Code: [Select]
[list type=decimal]
[li]Text1[/li]
[li]Text2[/li]
[li]Text3[/li]
[/list]

Horizontal line:


[hr]





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General Discussion / Re: Guide: Forum Post Customisation!
« on: September 04, 2020, 01:11:19 pm »
1. Color Code List
These are the named colors the BBcode of the forums supports. You can also replace the color name with a HEX color code to get that exact shade.

Useful Tools:
HEX Color Code online picker
BBcode Text Gradient Generator

Colors:
Code: [Select]
[color=COLOR OR #CODE]-your text-[/color]
(Unwrap the Spoiler below to see the full list of named colors)
Spoiler
[ A ]
█Your Text - aliceblue
█Your Text - antiquewhite
█Your Text - aqua
█Your Text - aquamarine
█Your Text - azure

[ B ]
█Your Text - beige
█Your Text - bisque
█Your Text - black
█Your Text - blanchedalmond
█Your Text - blue
█Your Text - blueviolet
█Your Text - brown
█Your Text - burlywood

[ C ]
█Your Text - cadetblue
█Your Text - chartreuse
█Your Text - chocolate
█Your Text - coral
█Your Text - cornflowerblue
█Your Text - cornsilk
█Your Text - crimson
█Your Text - cyan

[ D ]
█Your Text - darkblue
█Your Text - darkcyan
█Your Text - darkgoldenrod
█Your Text - darkgray
█Your Text - darkgreen
█Your Text - darkkhaki
█Your Text - darkmagenta
█Your Text - darkolivegreen
█Your Text - darkorange
█Your Text - darkorchid
█Your Text - darkred
█Your Text - darksalmon
█Your Text - darkseagreen
█Your Text - darkslateblue
█Your Text - darkslategray
█Your Text - darkslategrey
█Your Text - darkturquoise
█Your Text - darkviolet
█Your Text - deeppink
█Your Text - deepskyblue
█Your Text - dimgray
█Your Text - dimgrey
█Your Text - dodgerblue

[ F ]
█Your Text - firebrick
█Your Text - floralwhite
█Your Text - forestgreen
█Your Text - fuchsia

[ G ]
█Your Text - gainsboro
█Your Text - ghostwhite
█Your Text - gold
█Your Text - goldenrod
█Your Text - gray
█Your Text - grey
█Your Text - green
█Your Text - greenyellow

[ H ]
█Your Text - honeydew
█Your Text - hotpink

[ I ]
█Your Text - indianred
█Your Text - indigo
█Your Text - ivory

[ K ]
█Your Text - khaki

[ L ]
█Your Text - lavender
█Your Text - lavenderblush
█Your Text - lawngreen
█Your Text - lemonchiffon
█Your Text - lightblue
█Your Text - lightcoral
█Your Text - lightcyan
█Your Text - lightgoldenrodyellow
█Your Text - lightgray
█Your Text - lightgrey
█Your Text - lightgreen
█Your Text - lightpink
█Your Text - lightsalmon
█Your Text - lightseagreen
█Your Text - lightskyblue
█Your Text - lightslategray
█Your Text - lightslategrey
█Your Text - lightsteelblue
█Your Text - lightyellow
█Your Text - lime
█Your Text - limegreen
█Your Text - linen

[ M ]
█Your Text - magenta
█Your Text - maroon
█Your Text - mediumaquamarine
█Your Text - mediumblue
█Your Text - mediumorchid
█Your Text - mediumpurple
█Your Text - mediumseagreen
█Your Text - mediumslateblue
█Your Text - mediumspringgreen
█Your Text - mediumturquoise
█Your Text - mediumvioletred
█Your Text - midnightblue
█Your Text - mintcream
█Your Text - mistyrose
█Your Text - moccasin

[ N ]
█Your Text - navajowhite
█Your Text - navy

[ O ]
█Your Text - oldlace
█Your Text - olive
█Your Text - olivedrab
█Your Text - orange
█Your Text - orangered
█Your Text - orchid

[ P ]
█Your Text - palegoldenrod
█Your Text - palegreen
█Your Text - paleturquoise
█Your Text - palevioletred
█Your Text - papayawhip
█Your Text - peachpuff
█Your Text - peru
█Your Text - pink
█Your Text - plum
█Your Text - powderblue
█Your Text - purple

[ R ]
█Your Text - red
█Your Text - rosybrown
█Your Text - royalblue

[ S ]
█Your Text - saddlebrown
█Your Text - salmon
█Your Text - sandybrown
█Your Text - seagreen
█Your Text - seashell
█Your Text - sienna
█Your Text - silver
█Your Text - skyblue
█Your Text - slateblue
█Your Text - slategray
█Your Text - slategrey
█Your Text - snow
█Your Text - springgreen
█Your Text - steelblue

[ T ]
█Your Text - tan
█Your Text - teal
█Your Text - thistle
█Your Text - tomato
█Your Text - turquoise

[ V ]
█Your Text - violet

[ W ]
█Your Text - wheat
█Your Text - white
█Your Text - whitesmoke

[ Y ]
█Your Text - yellow
█Your Text - yellowgreen




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General Discussion / ▶ Guide: Forum Post Customisation!
« on: September 04, 2020, 01:09:33 pm »
_____Forum Post Customisation Guide
by Ritulienka

This thread contains chaptered guides on variety of basic customisation for things like letters, posters, character bios and more!
All of these work on the Netheril forums.
BBcode is versatile albeit a bit clunky, so don't expect miracles from it!


Chapters of this guide:
1. Color Code List
2. Formatting Codes
3. Tables - Perfect for Character Bios


I hope you find it helpful!
                        - Ritu
______

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*Zahirra heads to the Valstiir Library to respectfully ask about the people who destroyed Necropolis, hoping to end up with a name of at least one magically-proficient person to talk to about the details of it with.*

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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Zahirra Sa'Laeth - Deflecting the Destiny
« on: March 01, 2020, 04:09:53 pm »

The day has come.

It was time to leave an intimidating sum of money at the bath house - a bath, a massage, and a hairstyle with the red rose from Retz braided into my hair. Few finishing touches, dark blood lipstick, and I was ready. I couldnít possibly be happier with the outcome.
Royal, elegant, stunning.
Let me represent, with perfection and grace.

Festival was as hectic and fun as could be, with minor nuisances being swiftly taken care of by the alert guards. Besides having fun with my colleagues, Retzlaff and some others, I was lucky enough to be spotted by Neasa and hang out with her after long weeks! I am happy she found herself a good half, even though she says it's still early days. I'm glad - and she, of course with a laugh, told me she's going to be happy for me as well when I decide for something in that chaos of mine. At least around Tenshi I can be sure.
Even the Lords decided to come out and hang out with the citizens - despite likely overlooking the heads of other noble families, she and I met and talked with Lord Reschotti and Lord Dukkarus at the meal sample tables. Both of them were quite at ease with one another, and the lighthearted mood soon spread and blended the lines between statuses.

Unexpectedly, Sjach has come to see the festival as well. He left me with a bag, containingÖ treasures. Ones I shall keep and cherish, and a note. He and I also talked. On the little boat adorned by candles and a snack plate, we slowly talked. Remembering the good times, knowing it was special. Slowly I rested my head on his shoulder and he leant his head against mine, as the nervousness passed and in the end, we were simply there.
It was the calmest time I had in a long while. No thrill, no chase, no words, no motion. Simply, peace. And the safety I remember so well. A worthwhile reward after the whole month of preparations, even if only for a single evening.

A mosaic casket, with fragments and gems. Shaped flowers, prismatic glint, wishes and aspirations.



- And so she read, dark hair spread over her back, sitting cross-legged on the private Estate bed. With soft silk, dark wood and sheer curtains around she hid from the world, into another one.

Quote
"I knew I wasn't worthy of your love, Nor was I ready to be the one for you always,
But I am glad that you are happy,
I am glad you are doing this for your self,
I always only want to see you happy, even if it is without me in it,
I am sorry for all I have done and I hope you forgive me.

I hope you find some use in the things I gave you in this bag may they keep you safe,
I hope that life treats you well and so do the people in it,
I hope you become more then you have ever dreamed about.
I also hope that we will meet again, but most of all I hope that isn't on the battlefield,
There is nothing left for me to stay around for, So this will be the last you hear from me.
I hope that there isn't any bad blood.

Once your little dragon,
Sjach'Vivex."

A mosaic casket, hiding gems and dreams.

- The following new morning meant an end to her haze, of the dream of the colorful lights shining in the night sky. The rising sun brought along with it a new workday. And she, ready in red and black, set the flowers aside and has ventured into the Plains.


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Netherese Library / Research - Stealth etc.
« on: February 24, 2020, 01:17:01 pm »
*Zahirra takes a casual stroll to the Library to look for any literature and sources regarding advanced stealth, infiltration and concealment techniques, perhaps something about masters to learn such from. It canít be said she expects much of this, but she might as well stop by and take a look to pass the time besides watching the fish in the aquarium.*

*If she wouldn't find anything there, she'd later head to the private Estate libraries to check just in case*

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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Zahirra Sa'Laeth - Deflecting the Destiny
« on: February 15, 2020, 10:03:13 pm »

A dance practice. Of course.
The dance of whatever is starting to unfurl its petals, a stability in the true independency. The risk of trusting, of sharing what has not been shared before. Bittersweet sip of wine, an intact chocolate cake.
To get lost in paradise. Freshness, a lush foreign land, the blue of the sky, an unexplored wilderness for the senses and mind. A slow dance, it could last for a week or could last for months until we wander towards the core.
Trust and ease. Bare nudity of the heart, not one of the body. Nothing to shield against.
It might be wrong, but it feels right as we lose ourselves in paradise.


Thoughts and options. Being told again, this time by a different person, that I should do what I long for. Fortunately, the only meeting on today's schedule has been short and to the point, with the manager of the Theatre about the planned stage and the possible plays. Both before and after that however, the topic of the dragon still weighed on my mind.
After the meeting, on my way down in the airship I have fully decided. Iím having no more of this.

Familiar port, familiar creatures and a familiar path. Steep ascent and a gate, with small shuffling noises echoing from the large hall.

I explained to him that I canít go on like this anymore. Thereís enough on my plate as it is, and having to be anxious about every single thing while Iím around himÖ I canít live like that. To fear having to visit someone and then act as if everythingís perfect to keep others from having concerns.
And truly, I have done it purely for my own sake, regardless of the timing of it. Iíve been pondering on this for weeks, ever since the weight of it started to grow, and grew to the point I felt tired all the time. My service to the House and my health have to be a priority, the first can't flourish without the latter. Therefore, a time has come for the final farewells, and for no more gentleness. And for the one last time, I walked out of the place that once upon a time felt so, so safe.

Finally free. Yet here I am, hiding in the bed with its sheer curtains blurring out the world, curled up in a ball with only the heavy covers anchoring me in the present moment. Numb. Did I win or did I lose? Beyond my recognition. Despite it being faded and nonexistent towards the end, there was once care and love.

ÖAnd no one can be allowed to see.

I thought it would be easier. But such is the path I chose.


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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Zahirra Sa'Laeth - Deflecting the Destiny
« on: February 13, 2020, 01:49:42 pm »

High investments hope for even higher returns.
But what to invest in now?

The thoughts swirl and churn unending as my mind races every night I lay down in my bed at the Estate. Alone. Thoughts drifting from one to the other, barely focusing on the work itself which is usually part of my evening thoughtsÖ but not as of late.
An encroaching, alluring scent of a fresh prey that drowns the senses in the feeling of novelty and unknown. To get a bite, a taste, a little something. Something that cannot be, shouldnít be. Though the little taste I got brought me some sort of an anchored feelingÖ
A little grain of peace, a thing so precious now that the feeling of being balanced and valued has disappeared from what I used to be, and still am, in.

Regarding that - Neasaís reply came in today. With my hands, unable to stop trembling, I opened the letter and in that moment my anxiety dropped down from me. She doesnít mind. Itís okay to do it when the time I won't be able to continue comes. Now, I feel more free. And I got in the mood for something, a little escape from the confining walls and elegant velvet suits.


I opened my eyes and watched the moon, felt the wind slash against my skin.
Ran, I ran with Arak and his pack until I ran out of breath and we had to stop by a pond. The reflection of the starry sky, gentle colours of nebulae and the massive orb of white light. Only a dark silhouette of me against it all, with my hair falling free in a smooth, wind-grazed cascade of black. Watching it all, catching my breath. I felt powerful and free again. Maybe not exactly powerful, but capable. It felt so cleansing to shed the manners and trained posture, the obligations and duties. At least for a while, for a short hour in a short night before coming back, passing the cave that once felt like home on my way to Hadrian.


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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Zahirra Sa'Laeth - Deflecting the Destiny
« on: January 31, 2020, 09:38:24 pm »

So much success as of late - at least for the most part. Many meetings attended and even more of them arranged. Itís definitely more difficult to work with ease without the time to unwind, but whatís my choice here really. Iím not going back to the bottle, that never helped in the first place.


Iím quite tired but itís of no matter, I feel joy in knowing that the festival is going to happen, and all is going so well! Dangerous at times, yes, but as a Slaver I took on the beast hunting duty too. Come to think of it, it should be the -only- thing I do. Heh. Perhaps I should be lazier, but then my place would not be proudly in this House. I love it here.
The growth of my Houseís reputation and the overall satisfaction of the general public and nobility due to the event is going to be worth it, though personally mostly I look forward to the fireworks. Iím going to watch from the lakeside, glancing one time at the rippled reflection, and the other to the blazing shapes in the sky. I wonder if there will be someone by my side.
Ah, what am I thinking. He wonít come unless Iíd beg him to. And, maybeÖ hm, maybe. But I donít give it much of a chance.
Who knows, maybe Mendel will throw me at someone during the Great Midnight Dance like Neasa suspects.
Maybe I can at least hang out with her and the brothers, that way we have two dance pairs there. At least weíd get to have fun.

Should I come in a meeting suit, or in a dress? I changed up that midnight blue one I had on the night Sjach and IÖ the gala and what came after. I shouldnít be keeping reminders like that, but oh he surely looked gorgeous in that suit. My dragon. Probably not anymore, though.
The sudden voidÖ no, not sudden. Iíve seen it coming but averted my eyes from the truth. Only thing I got were lies about how much I mean and whatnot. After I stopped coming there on my own, not a word has come, and I bet not a thought either. I suspect now heís at his cave, counting treasures with that loveable grin of his. I brought him enough it seems and now Iím unneeded. Arthur said itís gonna be my House who discards me, but oh how wrong he was in his sharran marketing speech. How very wrong.
I wish it hurt less, knowing it was never real and that Iím not even worth of being told itís over.


Does me being able to provide for us both weigh down so much on the little scalie? The more I managed to do, the less confident in himself he seemed. And is my ability to take care of things going to scare away anyone else who might happen to be interested in the wreck I am? I suppose yes. It wouldnít be my life if it had something nice in it for longer than a while, for a duration of a lie.

Love. At least I got to have a taste of it, of the feeling akin to a fresh mountain spring water. With rich but neutral taste, pleasant, refreshing and somehow cleansing in feeling, taking impurities and worries away as you get lost in its nuances and subtle variety of the sensations that only grow with every passing day.
Despite losing it, I hope the memory of this feeling will remain in within me so there is something lighting up my way forward, no matter how faintly. And perhaps Iíll recognise it once more.


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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Zahirra Sa'Laeth - Deflecting the Destiny
« on: January 27, 2020, 09:04:27 pm »

I never expected confiding in Neasa. Talking about basic things like relationships or annoyances at our jobs was so relaxing, something I really missed. Actually talking openly in an eased manner. And it felt so genuine. A feeling Iím still wary of, but what is there to risk with all the other things piling up?

She has listened and talked about how things felt for her with Teuivae and what happened there. That she felt unworthy of her, however, it wasnít from the start unlike my situation has always been.


Iím glad this little blank book has become my little private space to let my thoughts roam.
So, this really isnít a decision I ever planned on making nor wanted to have to make. I always loved being his little gem, and I bet I still do underneath the defensive stance and focus on work I adopted to lessen the stress.
Even Aurix preferred to not have my dragon around and later advised me in private to seriously rethink the choice of my company. The simple fact is that things have come to the point where I could lose much more than what I gain. So a change of some kind needs to happen.
Iím risking my future, position, safety, Houseís reputation, and my life itself due to Botelerís shenanigans. He needs this relationship in order to blackmail my dragon, but if there will be none, he will go there anyways. I shouldnít have to feel any pressure to be someoneís saviour or carer, heís strong enough and that balance and safety was what kept me going, what made me feel supported by at least one person who used to give a damn. I have to let it pan out in any way it will. No need to overthink. No need to chase.


Iím going to give the time I used to spend traveling to Sullivans into something else. Writing, crafts, walks, business studies. Perhaps fishing at that little place I found? I have a life to live and I shouldnít throw it away for something that doesnít give back.
I am Slaver SaíLaeth, member of the Oldest House in the Region, the Noble House Reschotti, and the eldest daughter of the main branch of SaíLaeth family. Dealing with trades, tasks, meetings and events which involve far more people than one unappreciative person who I wasted enough effort onto. If I should feel like I have to serve anyone, itís only to my Lord.
I shouldnít throw this away.
And I donít feel the need to.


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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Zahirra Sa'Laeth - Deflecting the Destiny
« on: January 26, 2020, 08:36:57 pm »

And so the times and events go and so rarely we stop to truly be presentÖ

Iíve been doing well, my diary. At the work, at least.
The preparations for the festival are plentiful - I went out to catch some beasts too. I went out alone, as Iíve been and felt for the past days including this one, and it has almost cost me more than would be healthy.

Itís not about overconfidenceÖ I know I can do little in terms of self-defence. Itís more like, I donít know. Like the feeling of having no one to turn to, again?
Iím glad I no longer drink when I feel like this, I just look for more things to do. Little things, anything to help me take my mind off of what I feel, at least until I go to sleep often missing the wings around me.

I couldnít believe when I saw him outside his cave - what shocked me the most was that I felt surprised andÖ afraid? So strange.


Work is at lease moving in the matter of the Voust Estate again, a part-celestial of a name Aurix helps me investigate. She doesnít approve of the company I brought, and has pretty much kicked my dragon out of the whole situation, only so-so tolerating Retzlaff who I took as a bodyguard, originally for Tatiana.
Aurix is to get back to me with what she found out in a week or soÖ and after that, yay, time to put my life on the line again to delve into depths of the canyon, possibly.
Orc mines, repair donations, this thing, the little gifts I like giving purely to feel something for at least a secondÖ am I only keeping myself just busy enough to not see Iím purely viewed as something expendable by everyone?
Though I think I always knew, deep down.

I wish there was Raven and Trinra still around, even though Ravenís plans for my House were not the nicest. But what of it, I have to push on while I can.

However,
amidst all the things there has appeared something, a gift in return I enjoy resting my eyes on. I donít think I ever received a flower before, I never knew what was so special about it. But somehow, it is special and feels special too.
Various shapes and sizes of beautyÖ
Certainly a difference from the one-sidedness of what Iím used to, even though I know hope itís not intentional. Probably Iím just lying to myself, I donít know anymore. Iím risking and giving so much and gettingÖ what exactly. I miss the feeling of pure safety and peace, the comfort and warmth. And how could I know when apology is just a lie.

So now, thereís usually a large, blooming red rose at my belt,
a physical reminder that thereís more to the world than cold stone and business meetings.
Itís so silly thoughÖ
Just a flower.

And I donít want to chase anymore.


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General Discussion / Re: Monthly Arena Events
« on: January 20, 2020, 08:34:31 pm »
I think it would be interesting to have red shirt characters for this as well. So, if we don't want to risk our main characters we can still take part.

This would be great.

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General Discussion / Re: Monthly Arena Events
« on: January 20, 2020, 11:15:00 am »
Hadrian's Warehouse is not much of a full-on Arena material, one Hilltop Bear would wreck it so that's ideal for people-only smaller festivities and events  (maybe even auctions)
In case any idea for it comes to mind I'll definitely work on it :)  Ideally if I could get another faction into it too, involving more people in setting it up would be sweet. We'll see how things go.

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General Discussion / Re: Monthly Arena Events
« on: January 19, 2020, 05:21:04 pm »
Prescheduled monthly events would be a gorgeous thing it allows people to actually MAKE time for the event instead of everything being left for the last moment as it unfortunately sometimes is.
Providing beasts for Valstiir Arena would be a part of Zahirra's duties, so I'm all up for it. I still need to figure out a post format for the things she captured for it already.

I actually have two resch-event posters already made - one for arena, other for Lady Valstiir's Birthday Festival, so I'm just gonna need dates and numbers :)  It's gonna be a great thing since I can take people out again to look for things to capture.

I have expected the Lady Valstiir thing for February, so perhaps it can be not only a fair at the Lakes District but also arena on the day after so it's an event balanced for both social RPers and more fight-and-challenge-oriented people.

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