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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Character Introduction: Trent M. Lormain

« on: June 30, 2018, 07:57:49 am »

I finally told her, I told her everything, but it was far too late. She doesn't love me, she loves Rhod, her heart belongs to him. A part of me I guess always knew, she would never truly be with someone as truly broken and damaged as I am. I wanted to always believe their might be a chance for happiness with her, but it was all a delusion. That is one thing the Netherese were right about. No one would ever truly want someone like me. Not my parents, not the Swords, and not her.

I returned to the cave in a blind anger, I think I broke my other hand, it really hurts and it bleeds, but well, at least it numbs the rage and internal pain for a time. I cannot blame her for wanting someone who can better take care of her then I ever could. She deserves better then a monster, even if she doesn't know how far I have truly fallen.

I accepted the demon, I truly let him in, when she told me she couldn't be alone with me, I became self destructive, and had Pheroth not found me, I would have done something far more foolish then breaking my hand. No, I accepted them instead. It was actually very easy to find and connect to them, then it was just a choice, and it was one very easily made.

Dame Lucil had her chance, the Swords had their chance...Keelie had her chance. There is no saving me now, I surrendered. I am done trying to be the good guy, only to be punched in the gut again and again and again. Its not worth it, I need to focus now on my vengeance, my pain and the end goal. I will serve my penance to Assuran for the womans murder. Not by Hadrians laws of course since those are corrupt as sin. Though I will ensure my own penance.

For now I should curl up with Pheroth, the pain and emotional distress has literally drained me dry, and the only rest will be found with him. Why do I need him to rest? I don't really know, but it is the only way I sleep peacefully, I would truly be lost without him. For now...we are safe.

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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Character Introduction: Trent M. Lormain

« on: June 29, 2018, 11:13:35 pm »

I have decided to truly let go, to free myself from pain and misery, no more people playing with my heart and head, using me as some pawn. Pheroth will show me the way to open myself truly to the demon, to fully embrace him and accept him as a part of me forever. There will be no turning back ever when I open this flood gate, it will require me fully embracing him as part of me, accepting the darkness and truly letting go, we will be one in every sense of the word.

I have tried to be good, I have tried to be a hero, I have tried to find a better path, yet every time I tried, someone or something has stomped me back into place, reminding me that I do not deserve that happiness, or to live free of pain and suffering, so instead, I will stop seeking it, I will embrace the "Monster" they want me to be.

Assuran knows I have tried, I regret killing that woman, and I will gladly accept real punishment for it, but not Hadrians, they would just kill me, no, that is not Justice. May Assuran bless me as I continue forth on this path, though, I am left to wonder how much longer he will accept me?

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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Character Introduction: Trent M. Lormain

« on: June 29, 2018, 08:41:22 pm »

I saw Keelie today, she came to where I am now, we spent a long time talking and...she stirred something in me I long thought lost and buried...all before rekindling the pain that has always been. I asked her to come with me, for merely five minutes, a simple jaunt just nearby, but she wouldn't she had promised Rhod that she wouldn't as hes filled her head that I would kill her...I would never harm her, gods knows I have come closer to killing Edulis then I have anyone, and still never struck out....what I did the other day was survival related, nothing more. I didn't target her during the ritual when the Demon got me to attack them, and I wont start now. The pain though, it was very real. The reminder of why I should never open my heart to others, the moment you do, they stab a knife into it to remind you that you cannot be trusted or anything more then a distant connection. Why do I keep allowing myself to believe otherwise exactly? Why do I want to believe there could be more with her, a closer bond...someone I WANT to trust...Perhaps I really am just a fool? * wet smudge on the paper suggests either water or some other liquid momentarily dripped onto the page before it was closed off

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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Character Introduction: Trent M. Lormain

« on: June 29, 2018, 05:51:19 pm »

A small brown notebook is found tucked away in his bags, literally marked as the Journal of the Damned.

What have I done for the sake of power? Many things I fear, bonding with a Demon willingly, murdering a woman, turning my back on a ritual to remove the demon, these are all things I have willingly done, as well as listening to the demon. I cannot trust anyone else but Pheroth now. He is the only one that has been loyal and true to me. Even Keelie I think hates me at the moment, Dame Lucil claims she wanted to help me, but like all the other fake Selunites, I doubt she will return my message.

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Journals & Backgrounds / Character Introduction: Trent M. Lormain

« on: June 19, 2018, 09:40:06 am »

Birth Name: Trent Micheal Lormain
Adopted Name: Trent Dusdrassius
Age: 16
Race: Human (?)
Identifying marks: Covered from the neck down in scars and lacerations
Hair: Pitch Black
Eyes: Light Blue (?)




Theme Song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9NStVkSCuk

Born in the town of Everfrost (which will one day become Neverwinter) to farming parents that never actually wanted children due to the raging poverty across the farmlands, they soon sold their son off at the first offer of five hundred gold to the Enclaves.

Ripped away from his home at the age of six, betrayed by those sworn to love and protect him, he began a life of torture, pain and experiments...the end results...well, as the saying often goes, monsters are often made, not born.

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Feedback and Bugs / Re: Is the current Respawn and ressurection system to punishing?

« on: June 14, 2018, 04:08:42 pm »

I second, third and fourth this, going from less then 4k to 9, down to 700 till lvl 8 because a bugbear chieftain managed a crit...it hurts, it sucks and the only response for it is to suck it up and move on. Or go see if X will oocly grind you up. Yep...these are the basic answers...I still say the Arelith system, while many might be a bit picky on it, would solve SO much of this....massively lower the xp cost, I would love to lose all gold im carrying and a low amount of xp instead if self raising, and instead I get x IG hours of res sickness if I self raised, 1hp with others just using a raise scroll..no xp cost so I still have to heal up...and full health with a full Resurrection.

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General Discussion / Re: Pick Pocket, a discussion

« on: June 01, 2018, 04:57:47 am »

Just make sure to set Hostile on the target you are stealing from. It is a hostile pvp action.

As a player who does play rogues, hostiling the target, makes it very easy to metagame whats going on....though understand in the same instance...you get caught, you get a beat down fairly. You don't get to complain about it.