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Journals & Backgrounds / Re: Character Introduction: Trent M. Lormain
« on: July 20, 2018, 12:10:16 am »
I spent most of today at the Abbey, praying, seeking guidance and perhaps a new path. Dad showed up later this eve and started talking about going to Hadrian..he knows I hate when he goes there. He promised me we wouldn't step foot in Hadrian again, not after what happened last time that almost cost me half of my life, if not eventually killing me. I got upset typically and pushed away the food he tried to press which caused it to fall over and spill, then he snapped at me for it.
Hearing him snap like that, I immediately broke down. I can't handle him being angry with me, or snapping at me, I know he immediately regretted it when he saw my reaction, but I couldn't help reacting that way. Emotional and mental distress I cannot handle, physical I can take at any time.
Now I sit here, waiting for him to return, praying I am wrong about this bad feeling that likes to loom in my heart every time I hear he's going there, I guess the promise was worthless about us never going there again. Not the first time I have had promises broken, I should be used to it by now I guess. No ones immune to saying what someone wants to hear, promising them something to make things seem better then they are, then throwing them away when its not convenient anymore.
Hearing him snap like that, I immediately broke down. I can't handle him being angry with me, or snapping at me, I know he immediately regretted it when he saw my reaction, but I couldn't help reacting that way. Emotional and mental distress I cannot handle, physical I can take at any time.
Now I sit here, waiting for him to return, praying I am wrong about this bad feeling that likes to loom in my heart every time I hear he's going there, I guess the promise was worthless about us never going there again. Not the first time I have had promises broken, I should be used to it by now I guess. No ones immune to saying what someone wants to hear, promising them something to make things seem better then they are, then throwing them away when its not convenient anymore.